These speculative botanical works engage the body in a sensory touch relationship with drawing. Each botanical subjectivities are made through repetition, building complex transitional patterns that bypass a fixed logic. Recognizable forms of leaf shapes set up a vibrational and perceptual fields as I look away from and return to the drawings as a continuous corporeal force, reaching, dragging and pushing against structures with fingers, palms, wrists and elbows. My sensory body desires an escape from the structure and my maternal and regulatory body offers structures when the drawing is made. This splitting of selves carries themes through the work. Sometimes my selves become sisters that rival, and other times sisters that covet and protect. The field that I set up when I begin a drawing, is relational and open to changed. For example, displacement of color creates organic forms, pushing into and carving out illusions of void and mass. Contrasts of dark and light are animated by the elements of balance, repetition and movement, mixing into complex variations of neutral interactions. Each time I return to the drawing, I enact a touching between the twin sibling forces within myself, an infinite rhythm of obliteration and continuation. My work investigates unstable selves within a visually tactile field through somatic movement with the shapes that plants, and other life forms can make.